Most days just washing my behind is an effort. And yet I've tried as best as I could to carry out my daily routine with about as much grace and dignity as I possibility can. But it has not been enough in the eyes of this Type A personality/overachiever. I'm feeling guilty and insecure all at the same time. Guilty because my blog schedule has been off and I have not been able to give you the best of what's inside of me.
Yet I know that I haven't neglected my readers altogether. But people are so demanding and expecting, I wonder will I lose you if I'm not as exciting and creative and on schedule all the time?
It's been a fine balancing act over here: an IV drip 2 times a day for 2 hours, writing the blog, planning my Tweet-up/Meet-up on July 15th at Encore Liquid Lounge and doing the other things that are necessary to keep food on my table and my ministry and work around HIV relevant.
All I can ask is that you don't give up on me. That you continue to support me and my ministry in the low moments of my life, when my best is simply holding it all together with grace...
For so long, I have been a one woman show, but I know that I cannot do this alone. As I often say on Twitter, #icannotdoitalone. Your continued support of my blog, your prayers, and even your presence at my first Event is a concrete way that you support me and stand against stigma and shame wrapped around HIV/AIDS.
I know that I am not at my best, but, I am giving it the best that I've got!!
Post Script: And yes, each day I do get up, bathe, comb my hair and put on my earrings (Diva Rule)... And yes, some days, therein lies the victory!!!