So let's take it from the top. A little over week ago, during a routine gynecological exam, the doctor discovered a mass near my ovary. Everything stopped! Women with HIV/AIDS have a lot more gynecological problems then women without HIV, as well as a larger share of cancer. So the doc didn’t waste one moment. She scheduled me for an ultrasound the following day. I already knew that I needed a colposcopy, an invasive exam that allows the doctor to take a closer look at your cervix. This was starting to be overkill. So now it was all compounded. Could I have cancer? I mean, three abnormal pap’s and now a mass near my ovary the size of a small plum. Not good! Let’s not forget my stomach virus had not budged. Diarrhea, nausea, food sensitivity. I was lucky if I managed to get down and keep down 800 calories a day. Not only was I miserable, I was scared and confused. Not only did it seem that my health was out of control but my home and my life as well. I was muddling through the chaos as best as I could. I knew something had to give.
We tackled one problem at a time. Scared out of my mind, I agreed to go on the drug holiday. So a week ago last Friday I stopped taking all of my HIV medications with the hope that it will resolve the problems I've been having with my stomach. After one week we saw mild improvement, so the doctor extended the holiday through this week also. I have to say that I see more and more improvement with each passing day. Currently, my diarrhea has totally stopped. I still have mild nausea that seems to be more intense immediately following a meal. And slowly but surely I’m able to eat more at each meal. But it’s still hit or miss. Like today, I made grits for breakfast and the taste of them made me nauseous. So food is still trial and error. As for cupcakes, I tried one on Friday and I could only get through half. It seems super sweet and still isn't agreeing with my stomach.
Overall, the drug holiday seems to be resolving the problem. Remember, I had food poisoning and it made my stomach super sensitive to my HIV medication, leaving me on toxic overload. It looks like I may have another week off the medication after this week then back to HIV medication. Now, are all the potential problems still there? Yes they are. When I start back taking my HIV medication, I still may not be able to tolerate the same combination. Or I could have developed a resistance to them which means I will have to go on a new regime that we pray will be just as effective for my strain of HIV. But I can’t solve this problem today, it’s a dilemma I will have to cross when I get there. Can’t worry about what I don’t know. Now, on to what I know for sure. The mass they discovered seems to be nothing more then two common cysts. Typically they will shrink on their own. That was a relief!
As for the colposcopy, they had two experts look at my cervix and it looked “great.” Of course we will have the test results in about a month but they seem to think everything is just fine. The only thing though is this procedure left me pretty sore. But I had no time to think about my pain. The next day I was moving. No, I didn’t have professional movers, I had friends. The thing is, you cant ask people to do more for you than you are willing to do for yourself. So I “man-up,” as the saying goes. It only took us 8 hours considering I had over 30 boxes of books, 7 feet of bookshelves, over 100 pieces of art, and let's not even talk about the clothes and shoes.