Like yesterday, a friend of a friend's brother killed himself. He had been battling clinical depression for some time. Oh God, that's the ultimate and my heart was heavy for this family. That is the extreme end of depression. He needed clinical help but said no. And yes, each of us have the right to make a bad decision about themselves, even if it effects others negatively, but man, that's messed up all the way around. But I hope that the family members get the help they need to process the pain.
And sometimes life hits you so hard that being depressed and sad turns into a physical depression. Yes, I said physical depression. Your body is then impacted. It renders headaches, sleepless nights, too much sleep, a hard time getting jump started, loss of appetite, and the list goes on. I have battled with this type of depression. Shit, 27 years with HIV, 19 years with AIDS, and let's not even begin to talk about the demons of my childhood. So I will admit that yes, I struggle with depression. Not being depressed but DEPRESSION!
Over the years I have learned to recognize the signs and I don't stay in denial about shit. I go get help because I don't want a damn thing to take me out of here before my time. Yes, God is in control of life and death, but you can hurry things along with how you use your free will. So back in the fall I was on over load. After four rounds of IV medication and my tummy issues, life was getting way to hard. I started back on antidepressants. I take Zoloft. I take an antidepressant because that brings back into balance that which the depression had knocked out of whack. And yes, it gives me a pick me up and slowly you see the physical side of depressing leaving.
But for me, I need more then antidepressants, like therapy, a neutral place were I can process my pain and losses without someone telling me to pray about it or that everything is gonna be alright. Sometimes things are never right and you have to learn to live with what it is. That's a fact! Also, in the summer I take long walks and let the sun beam down on my face. I know it may sound silly, but it feels like God talking to me. But anyway, the sun is also great for depression as is exercise. I've been trying so hard to get back to a gym routine. They both increase serotonin and dopamine and I need all the help I can get. #ForReal. The best use of the free will God has given you is to do all that you can to be the best that you can.
So I seek out everything I can to help me live better. And on my tea journey, I have learned that tea can also help with depression. Honestly! Remember my first installment, The Power of White. Well, I'm gonna give you some more options today. I'm not saying that they will "cure" you of your sadness or clinical depression. You need to get the professional help you need. But I am saying that it can.
It's like this, white tea contains a compound called L-theanine. It's an amino acid that enters the brain and has shown to reduce different types of stress. It's a natural compound that works much like antidepressants by increasing the serotonin, dopamine, and gamma aminobutyric acid levels in the brain. And guess what, you can drink as much as you want, it's harmless. And white tea has a lower amount of caffeine.
First up is a wonderful tea, Nirvana. While speaking in Charlotte I discovered this wonderful Tea Lounge, Urbana City Spa and Tea Bar, I will be blogging about them soon. But this one particular tea I gotta tell you about now. Nirvana Tea is a perfect blend of white and green tea leaves, which give you even more anti-oxidants. It is blended with mango, pineapple, orange zest, apricot, strawberry, current and cherry. It's a wonderful exotic taste with no single fruit over shadowing the next. I find myself reaching for this tea quite often. You can also check out their other white tea blends.
I've already blogged about Amore by The Persimmon Tree Tea Company in a peppermint tea blog. But let me say this, this tea is a wonderful blend of white tea, peppermint, rose and bontanicals. I love this blend and typically reach for Amore when I still want the power of peppermint for my tummy but with a milder taste. The botanicals balance the peppermint rendering a soft floral taste with peppermint overtones. With Amore tea, I have the power of white and peppermint rendering a lot of goodness to match the taste of the wonderful blend. Check out their other white tea blends. Their tea is fresh and I have never been disappointed.
Esp Emporium has not disappointed me yet either. This White Grape tea they sent me is simply divine. What Steve didn't know when he sent this tea to me to try was that I'm a big big fan of white grape juice and I was way skeptical that this tea would not meet my standards for the taste of white grape. But boy was I pleasantly surprised!
When I opened the bag the smell of grapes jumped out at me. I had to take a double look at the ingredients to see if grape pieces were included. For Real! The rose hip peel, blackcurrents, mallow and cornflower blossoms help to create the perfect taste of White Grape. For about a week I found myself reaching for this White Grape blend for my afternoon tea. This is another winner!! I love ESP because they never just send one tea, they send 3 or 4. Along with White Grape came Macabeo and Sunny Passion, both teas are white/green tea blends which doubles the health benefits. You can take a look at ESP Emporium's other white teas. And remember they will give you a 10% discount, your coupon code is TeaWithRae.
No, I'm not saying that white tea will "cure" your depression. What I am saying is that there are powerful anti-oxidents that can help increase the serotonin and help to make you feel better overall.
But if you can't shake the blues, move beyond denial and shame and get the help that you need. I said last night that life was worth the living. Yes, life is hard and sometimes it's even harder... But keep holding on. And like one of my twitter followers told me one day when I was at the end of my rope, "Tie a knot and the end of that rope and hang on to the Bitch with dear life."
You never know what tomorrow holds! But I do know who holds tomorrow! God! And God's plan is always bigger than your plan. Think about it. If I had killed myself when I found out I had HIV, or when I was at my lowest point with AIDS, I wouldn't be here to write this blog.
No, there are no quick fixes. But don't deny yourself the things that will help you live better and be a better you!