Well, it's been two years today! Yep! I leaped out here in the blogging world two years ago today and it's been one heck of a journey. I never thought that my ministry would shape up like this. No, I thought I would be speaking/preaching and teaching women about self-love all over the country.
Welp.... Here I am preaching and teaching women about self love all over the world and I never have to leave my house. It's funny how you plan and then God plans. When speaking engagements dried up, I kept praying that God would open doors for me to keep ministering and honestly, I prayed for some $ ching change. Not speaking meant two things, I wasn't ministering and that's a shame cause God has given me so much to give to you, but not speaking also meant that I was one broke ass black woman! For Real... For Real...
Well, my funds have only gotten a tad better, here and there. Thank GOD for bracelet sales from my RLT Collection, cause ummm, some days I haven't had grocery money and then I get a sale or someone donates to my blog. It's funny how God works, just when I think there is no light at the end of the tunnel, just when my bank account hits $10.00, something comes along.
No, it's not how I would have planned it for myself. Nope! But I've never gone hungry and the lights have never been turned off. In the scheme of things, God has been a keeper! What I've learned in these last few years of financial struggle, I didn't need as much as I thought I needed. That's why my e-bay store is always up. The more I get rid of, the more I want to get rid of. It's been so liberating so much so, I've decided to get rid of almost all my St. John Knits... For Real!!
But most importantly, God continues to make room for my gift. Cause truly, this survivor is never gonna be homeless, if I gotta take my tail to McDonads and get a job. If I have to sale all of my clothes, I will make a way to keep a roof over my head. So back to the ministry. Blogging and tweeting is clearly an unorthodox way to minister, but it's a wonderful, available and a free tool!
At first I didn't think I could do it. Yes, I knew there was a ton of stuff inside of me waiting to get out, but I didn't know if I could write it down in a way that you would get it. Thank God I didn't let that fear paralyze me. You know, sometimes we have stuff we know we should be doing, but we let fear stop us. Fear of failure, fear of what people will say, just fear, fear, fear. Don't let fear run your life into the ground! God has so much for you, and you're stuck on the what if's and the perfect plan. There is no perfect human plan, just a perfect God plan and the sooner you open yourself up to what God wants for your life, the better off you will be.
Now I've had a few rough patches this year. My health has been doing the most. Some day's I was too sick to blog and other days I was so sick of being sick that I couldn't think about anything else but being sick. Depression sat in some days after long bouts of illness that I didn't want to wash my ass more less write a blog. I'll tell you that the IV medication I take to treat herpes, takes the freaking life out of me; Thank God for resilience! Here I am better and getting back into the swing of things.
We survived another year together. Thank you! Thank you for reading my blog! Thank you! Thank you for sharing my blog with others. Thank you! I couldn't have done it without you! Thank you for voting for my blog, and helping me to win, CBS Chicago, Most Valuable Blogger in Health for 2011. Thank you! Thank you for every donation! Thank you for every bracelet sale! Thank you! Thank you for every prayer. Thank you!
So here we go into a new year and I'm committed even more than ever!! Sometimes I get frustrated because my blog has no sponsors. I'm like what the heck do I have to do to get a sponsor? But I have to let that shit go. Just let it go!
Just like God has made room for my gift, God will provide for me. Maybe not having a sponsor keeps me focused on what God will have me to do, rather than what a sponsor would have for me to do. I''m sure in time the right sponsor with the right fit will come along. Someone who will value my work, uncut, uncensored. Until then, I will continue to do the work.
I need you to continue to read my blog. The more you read my blog the more valuable you make it. I need you to share my blog with your friends. I need you to Facebook and Tweet my Blog Post if you really like them. The more readers I get, the more valuable my blog becomes. We've done good in the scheme of things. I get about 23,000-25,000 readers a month, but I think we can double my readership.
I will make a commitment to keep pushing through whatever is going on in my life and write, write, write. I need you to make the commitment to read, read, read... share, share and share.
Thank you for another year! You Rock!!!